What if You Spanked Me?

What Would Happen if You Spanked Me?

I’d weep.

I’d fly apart into a million pieces and could never ever be put together again.

Really.

That’s how I feel. Like I could be caned out existence. Or thrashed into madness.

Playing sounds dangerous. Edgy.

Worse though, what if I didn’t fly apart?

What if I didn’t weep?

What if I am just numb?

2 thoughts on “What if You Spanked Me?

  1. Mija

    Thank you. I’m so glad to hear that. It’s been so affirming hearing from other people who’ve experienced this emotional deadening / numbing. It scares me so I don’t talk about it.

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